As I read all of your true concerns for me and for Lou, I am listening and learning from all of you. I know everything that has happened in the past and it was very painful for both of us. That is why he built OOB.org for me, to protect me from all of this heartache. I am strong, and I am very fragile as I go through the forum and allow these people to at least have their last say. I want it to be a healing time for all of us no matter how difficult it is for me, this is about the man I cherished, and he taught me real love for all people. You might think I'm kidding you here , but when I am answering this thread right this minute he is watching me type, I feel him looking over my shoulder and guiding me to say the right thing. As all of you know he was a brilliant man. I think people felt threatened by his genius because everyone wants to be intelligent and gifted as Lou , no one could ever fill his shoes and it must be taken as an opportunity to make this place better than ever...