Confusion By : Maggieblue

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Good Day all people who visit here.... I was awake this morning and somewhat humbled by confusion, distraction and a severe sense of calamity.....take a breath or two I told myself but still the anxiety loomed. Couldn't figure out what was so unsettling but as the day passed I came down from the jitteriness slowly by just placing one foot in front of the other and going to work. In all of my life I have, like so many, come to live with my triumphs and despair often without many resources but still managing to get a grip and plow forward. As Heppers we all have to do this one day or another in order to cope. The initial shock, the stigma, whatever we think our Karma must be for this viral acquisition we have been labelled and questioned. Told it can infect our friends and families by unknowing souls, doubted ourselves and our doctors, had to do treatment without one person in our close relationships really understanding just exactly how it feels. The ups and downs and waiting friggin waiting... Some days you just get all bottled up with it all I guess and we have to share with other HCV folks to get our balance back. Unwind the trauma of it all and smell the sweet spring air of hope. " Aint it just good to know that you've got a friend" the song goes and so goes it here as quiet as a sleeping bear this place is but still I can come here and ramble my thoughts. Know this you are loved, by many and by your higher power whatever that is for you, know there is universal, unconditional love here for all that happens....not just the sun but the rain...